Just to describe about what had appeared in my head.
My f's hand touching the bloody head of mine, my face is full of blood, as if i am seriously wounded. So many kinds of insects tight together, in a really tight way that is hard to seperate, as if they are a group, with strong hidden strength.Many red things sparkling, some of them i cannot remember. There were hundres of black beetles filled the whole pages,or other insects, still filled up my mind. the snakes that been cut out some parts, left with blood streaks, as if asking the world why they are so cruel, and with hatred. The flammulina velutipes wriggling the whole mind, and waterweeds wriggling as well. And my friends, and cousin's voice keep filling the background, saying that i am stupid, sneers me, criticize me, showing how much they dislike me, and trying to exclusive me by insulting the inner side of me. They talked to me rudedly, as if i have burned their house, and my f's voice, sounds as if he looks down on me extremely.He hates me so much because i cannot bring him honor, or he had spend so much time on me, that has waste his life. He pay for me, because of my mom, or because of his parents, which i dont know why.He hate me so much, and try to say that im not a human. But i was disappointed, i thought it shouldnt be like this, though there are cold voilence, but at least he would tell stories to me, or talk about human beings, at leat im his daughter, and it has been years, that we have tasted sunlights together.
