not in love

    I don't like so many cat faces here! I don't like one of them become a signal of my diary. I don't wanna define anything of my feeling! One word that I want to say, silly!
    He will be back in 3 days...God knows if our relationship will be the same as before or not! What shall I do when I meet him at that day? look like so happy and hug him to say 'miss you so much!!!' or just be like a normal good friend? What will he do to me, say to me when he see me? ...I just so silly for thinking this!!! I need to preparing my exams, how can I get all the time to think about him?!! God.
    I always worring these days, about my future, about our future. I know that I am a fool. And I know that if he knows I am thinking about 'our' future, he'll feel stressful and he'll certain don't like it...or maybe he'll ask me again, 'What can we do for our future?'!
    OH God, just don't let him know!
    Please.
    Maybe I'm not in love, cause I never loved before...