toWatch over me

    
    That was my Christmas...sitting beside Harry with a bit Simonsick, Lisoning C.basinet's 'Someone to watch over me'...
    I should be happy. Even that I told myself again and again, I just couldn't do it.
    Harry is that kind of boy in my dream. And Simon knows that. Cause I told him so many times but, I never be Harrysick when I stay with Simon.
    And he's never feel bad when I telling him this.
    Am I in love with him? I'm so scared.
    I know I'll certain be hurt if I fall into that deep emotion. I try to control it. Or I just fooling myself...
    Stupid girl.
    Every female is stupid when she fall in love. Sorry if you don't agree with it. I just try to make myself feeling better.
    I'm not fall in love.
    I know this is a contradiction...
    I can't keep him out of my mind. It's so unffair! He must be very happy now visiting his friends, and I'm here can't help thinking him all the time.
    I'm such a fool.