July 15

    How come i didn't write diary yesterday? It was Sunday. I remember that i went to my new grilfriend's house. I knew her through the Oicq. And she lives far away from me. It takes me 20 minutes to drive. And yesterday is the second time we met each other. She is pretty beatuiful somewhat. When she sent her photo to me, i felt she is so cute and so adorable. i like her very much. But when i saw her for the first time,she was not as prety as in the photo. But the second time i saw her. She is beatuiful again. And i told her i like her. And i thought that if only she doesn't have a bf. But i still told her that i like her.
     And during i stayed with her for a long time in her room. I kissed her and hug her. When i saw her closely, i found she is like a star in HongKong. Now i want to make love with her.
     But the fact is that i just like her and last nigh, i did miss her a little. But i don't think i love her. In the world, i only loved two girls. But i think if i was required to choose the only one i loved, i have no hesitate to think that my first gf is my lovest.And only the feeling with her is called 'love'. But now i don't love her already. And tell you the truth, I have the feeling that i won't love anyone anymore. I seems tired to love people.But i like to make love with the girls who i have a good feeling with. Until now, i have maked love with three girls and i think she is the fouth.
     I think i should be criticized and even be blamed. But this is my way of living. Cuze i am lonely and hurted by 'love'.