又一次反省

    Before the summer vaction began, I had a lot of plans that I wanted to accomplish. But now, a month has already passed, and looking back, I feel I am such a loser.
    Although I don't like but I have to admit that I am a procrastinated person. I think a lot but am somewhat reluctant to take the initiative to do anything. Sometimes I just wait and wait until I missed all the opportunities......
    If I started the summer job hunting a little earlier, I would probably have gotten a nice job by now. But perhaps unable to get a job is not what bothers me a lot but the uncertainty that besets me and the anxiety to make a lot of money over the summer are so profound.
    That philosophy class every Saturday morning is truely a torture! The professor is so patient that he can stand in front of the class talk for 3 hours without pausing, totally ignoring the restlessness arising from the students. Maybe it's very unrespectful to say philosophy is all rubbish, but it is indeed to me. I have very little knowledge about the whole concept of philosophy but I guess it deals with arguments and truth, and philosophers seek to prove their arguments by providing many supportive piont of views. but what is likely to happen is that their explanation always leads back to the original argument and they would strive to explain it more, this keeps going on and on and eventually becomes circular.....which never ends.....what a suffering!! The even worse thing is that I still have to endure this suffering for another 9 weeks.....poor little lili....