疑惑

To be honest, i started to get doubt about myself. Time passed fast, i already worked almost 3 years after my university. Now is the tough time for me, I resigned without getting a new job, I choose to come back to Penang and start my new life here. With the experience of 3 years, salary should be at that amount as I needed, but nobody is affordable to pay for me. Why not lower my salary? The problem is, I have that qualification to get since I have my degree holder, but not related to the field that i want to join; I have experience on working, but not outdoor sales as they want from me, i have indoor and graphic experience.God, I lost my way, I lost the chances to choose. It's not longer depend on my hand.. I lost my way, I need to share it out.. I need to get some comments, so suggestions to me. I totally out of ideas..Should I join the company that I really don't know, but since no choice? I'm jobless for 2 months already. Yet get any job...Today, I try to find my bf out for tea, hopefully he can give me some advice, some suggestions, but what I get is totally out of my expectation. He gave me a cold response and no suggestions, which suggestions is what i hint to him.. at least a feeling to let me calm, i also can't feel it. Gosh! He gave me nothing at the end..
Speechless......... & Doubt...