与死亡无关,生存有关..

原来,最好用来擦眼泪的,                                                                                       不是纸手帕,更不是名贵的手绢..                                                                                                 而是自己的手背.                                                                                             它,永远爱之深,切之痛,                                                                                            永远不会背叛,变节,离开..                                                                                                                               ,不是所有人都能忍痛陪伴,                                                                                                                不是所有人都是超人忍者.                                                                      人生路程漫漫总有人离去,                                                                                                                       我该感谢那些离开我的人.                                                                      我会承认我不够好要改变,                                                                                                                 会懂得只想要我学会坚强 .                                                                      可能是自我安慰安抚自己,                                                                                                                  但毕竟要一个人勇敢面对.                                                                         黑暗中摸索着我的的前方,                                                                                                                 时受伤时哭泣时失去光明.                                                                      再累再痛爬着也需要前进,                                                                                                                 掉队走散害怕就抱抱自己.                                                                                                                                                    女孩,夜晚被噩梦惊醒时,发现不再抱着洋娃娃.                                                                          男孩,傍晚未入睡清醒时,发现眼前不再是动漫.                                                                                                                                                                                 其实,孩子不再是孩子,                                                                                 可叛逆期的逃离又总在提醒自己的幼稚.                                                                                            以为谈几场恋爱就成熟了,                                                                                            以为能赚几个钱就独立了,                                                                                            以为朋友多就不会孤独了,                                                                                                却忘了以为只是以为,                                                                                  我们总在一味的自私追求自己想要的,                                                                                               反而丢了自己最宝贵的.                                                                                           回头死去活来地去寻找哭泣.                                                                                           残留的是碎片,组不成的自己.                                                                                                                                      承诺就像白天的神明,以为自己看到了天堂.                                                                                        结果却只不过是海市蜃楼的假象..                                                                                             记得,有个人这么跟我说过,                                                                                 "你明知道自己讨厌,自己却因为他这样,,                                                                                                那你跟他还有什么分别.."                                                                                                  "我不要变成像他一样"                                                                                           我在内心歇斯底里地重复呼喊.                                                                                                     我不要像他一样,.                                                                                                     我不能像他一样....                                                                                               凌晨失眠不断地在客厅徘徊..                                                                                                      莫名其妙的感到孤单,                                                                                                   莫名其妙的感到寂寞,                                                                                        莫名其妙的感受到自己的莫名其妙,                                                                                                     像电视剧般的人生,                                                                                           我们总憧憬着电视剧了的主角.                                                                                                        在意的是结局,                                                                                               却忘了不经风雨怎能见彩虹.                                                                                                   以前,总以为坚强很简单,                                                                                     幸福很简单,能面对刺眼的太阳就算厉害,                                                                                                   能忍让,牺牲,就是伟大..                                                                                                                                                            想着想着就笑了,想着想着又哭了..                                                                                                       "犯贱,做作,装逼,不要脸.."                                                                                               身边徘徊着我从未面对过的.                                                                                            我忘了身边不再有人保护,陪伴.                                                                                             我学会了一个人去面对,去习惯.                                                                                               难过时我会躲着一个人哭泣.                                                                                                                                                                             反反复复,重蹈覆辙..                                                                                   对不起让你们担心了,再没有你们的一年里,                                                                                                   我曾后悔过自己的离开,                                                                                                可却又在你们的鼓励支持下,                                                                                                学会了我当我初错过的东西,                                                                                          虽然,我失去远远比我的得到多的多..                                                                                                         快中考了,加油呗,                                                                                               不管怎样,就当我好好的呗.                                                                                   不管是牛丸,肥牛,还是牛牛,我承认我变了,                                                                                   但我还是我,需要我时还是会第一时间陪伴.                                                                                                     Fighting,Let's go..!                                                                                                                                     ,Ly3,2012.6.10.