i am one of the best

so i want to go aboard, get  a harverd,get the most fantasic play to work ,make farbulous money.no, i wangto be someone special ,surprising myself,not everyone can judge and predict in line.i want knoledge ,idea ,theory interpretation,i want to know ,i have my curious and be able to immerse and engage, to be lile one of them ,to feel ,to recreate, to create.i want my peace and second chance. so ,that's my plan,from day and now on.get a camera,toeverywhere i wangt see, to share my photo,go to xizangmaybe ,a long trip.take more family pboto.learn dancing and music,learn english ,finish tall and yeru, and other things i started, make a conclusion and arrange old stuff, and then ,finish tuofu words,maybe start mathmatics and analysis,this all whole thing i want, take care old classes i missed, i still care about you.learn cooking maybe,trying to be nice . be one of the best, ever i haavent get winner yet,alwanys do like the winner.become language genius,make little moving become an movie editor,i want thr power,when you talk to everyone ,it sonunds you are just talking to me ,just show me the movie ,just show me the paint, or when i see you ,i know waht i should see ,what i should offer, movie, painting music ,how to touch you ,find your emotion ,lei it out ,and clear youe mind,give courage ,as well as some money-maker advice ,tha t would be better.i really want to see the word, by some easy way,maybe that would be some wrong belief, there is no easy way, no just by the way ,no so perfect,ther is just if you had it, no matter haw mang suck stocks you had to pick up ,you always want to get it ,no m,atter how.maybe i dont want to touch people , i just wangt to touch myself,so if that the must way to heal and listen ,what i actually wantto do .iam too focus on this whole thing ,how you feel ,how to make you better ,feel better ,have energy to do better, thingker healther,that 's because that;s the years i wangt, for the other peoson, i wang them to live misealble life ,live unknown,and stupiod, so that i can feel how special i am. that 's th ereally me ,i dont wangto help pepolpe, i just wangto the power to help.who am i, waht i can do ,where is serve.yes ,i a a terrable ,eak ,empty man.i care nobody, isithat the ture, from alll the beginning, i am a selfish man?i just wangto prove i can changge your life, whatever with your own way,or with my wisdom and guide, i can that the im mporant, because ,i cant's change my way now ,i cant touch m,yself and get energy, i dont know how, so i think ,whe i get the power to change others, i can defenitelyy change myself ,this misealble ,stupin, hopelsee and cold life.that what i lack ,is what i want,i dont know waht i want ,i just know waht i lost, and i want i t back, my reputation ,my superiority, my top 3,except that ,waht am i really good at it, to summurize ,make up new word to speak, try to perfpmance, not bad memory and wnderstanding.that's it . i want forget myself ,if ther is some one i care, that;s my family, i wangto do things to make them happy or to fake happy ,because they wangt my happy, and thwy will fake it with me.i really do nor care anyone ,oh ,this thought is cold and hurt.that how a thought hurt.yes ,it is ,this hoilday will be the best hoilday ever