do i not have any more time to be with you? oh，my. it is not all my fault. when i came this new place. i meet those problems around. What a mess! how could i handle all of those things. there should be a beautiful stories between us. because you are one of the few female people i know in this city. are there always many troubles? i have no idea. i wanna be with you. there will be great love story. i don't know whether you are unattached or not. now i could only say some words here. i am going to began the tight flight tours of many companies tommorow. there i will meet many strange people, and most of them i never meet before. there maybe some new stories to happen. Let’s see what will happen.
will you forgive my neglect about you? i know that it's true, you won't. the real thing is you will forget me, not forgive me. oh, my. baby, i want you. darling, i wanna love you. when the time flies, you will go, out of my reach. that is my real. i make my endeavor to handle such affair, but i find i cann't do it now. i will lost you. you can only break into my dream, and i do not know how to handle this.
I wanna say something about the last one year, but I do not get a chance to say. I reckon I could tell a little today. after my going through the ordeal in the last one year, i just get my way, it is never to be easily to build a new smoothy life at a strang place, even until now, i don't know i am getting it right or not. but actually, i get some clues about it. and it could be much better than it was always now.
Last September, do you remember? I get a serious fever which last for two days and a night. Quite horrible, it was so close to the hell. In this September, a get another fever. It came so quick, everything turn to be out of my control, I went to do my transfusion in the gangkou hospital at one o’clock after the mid-night. What I could remember is that walk way is so long and I feel so weak in the cold and moisture atmosphere with the cold wind. I do not know why I could have such the pain twice in the two September. When I must face my life everyday, how could I focus on everything in the life? You could do onething in a time, and do the best to concentrate on it. I do not wanna say that I neglect you as the other assorted minutia in the life. For you are so special in my life. It even worth for my everything to make the deal. It should be like this. But what is the matter with me?
I do not wanna be cool and show the cool. I wanna be real, be the sure real of myself. Everybody must know what I said on the occasion when we said goodbye to everyone. I began with “ you will forget me…..” now one year has been gone. As it is, I was forget among those guys. My boss once said you need to be involved in the “俗世” and act as the “俗人”, but keep yourself in the inner heart. I know I can not take apart with the “俗世”. Now I get immerged in the true society. And I almost could handle my thing to take care of myself. Sometimes, I do not take care too much.
As time flies, I am still so busy in my fields and keep the pace. I know you get a lot time at hands, you won’t alone, there will be a Mr. right with you, and you live in happy. I will lost you. We will not see each other. When I get a lot of time at mh hands, there will be another unattached Miss with me too. What a pity, for we cann’t be with each other. And you can not share my knowledge, my humor, my handsome in the camera, and so on so forth. And I can not share your kind, your warm heart, and you skills to every problems, so on so forth.
Sometimes I say I do some research on something special fields, I do not to be kind of some profession one. It is not the real side. Each of us do want our own work will benefit for some more people, not only the only one ---ourselves. That is the responsibility, at lest it is my duty. There are not always dull things in my life, I could do entertainment to myself, when I search the aimed materials, I feel good, when I think something could go as it is, and it sure is. I wanna be nice at that time. When I do something multimedia work, I say to myself, yes, I can. There are great interesting for me to find. For example, I could enjoy various kind of music, and I love some music in my life, it tastes good to get some. There are alwasy too many music to select. Haha~
I must say the balance could be the most important thing. Not everything worth for digging. There are some fields that when you dig deep enough, you could only find some shit. I do not wanna say some about that. The key point is we will find something good, quite good.
