真的是不想继续在董事会工作了，不管怎么样，这一个月对我来说一直是自己说服自己的过程。我也不知道如果要是因为这个决定fuck up了friendship 会怎么样，不过现在这样真的不是我想要的。Being taken for granted. I appreciate the friendship, but it really sucks to feel and stay this way. I appreciate them for letting me see my own value in the machine world, and I appreciate their trust and pick me up at my lowest state. But I do not see the value of staying on the Board of Director while cannot afford to be responsible for the investors and everything. It was simply not the way. Maybe for 2 of you, you still can afford to lose, but for me, it was really different. I have already spent a lot of time and money and energy on investing myself to equip myself with new skills and capabilities, and now I cannot afford to fail with the whole team, and they really suck.
And I feel that at the back of my mind I was telling myself that I wish within one month the business can run without me, so regardless of the offer by Feimalv, I can exit without feeling guilty, but it was not the way.
Clearer in terms of strong feeling to run away, but I got to see how it goes after the vipassana show.
Ok, well. Need to re-position myself. 1 year, my god. Ok lor I will prepare what I need to prepare and also, get myself prepared for the meeting with FML COO. I'm looking forward.
The indian trip intention:
1. Calling
2. Healing
3. Prepare myself for the work, work and a more powerful completion
Hey, life I'm coming back! :))
