with a dreamy far off look, and her nose stuck in a book...

last night didn't sleep until 2, kept reading papers and being worried about today's meeting with my boss....and wake up around 7 this morning. so wearing this "dreamy faroff look" a whold day long. I had great fun on my birthday weekend, having real Chongqiong hot pot with bunch of people, going to the symphony center, laugh and cry with such a wonderful concert the first time in my life, having Karean food and taking pictures...but the tradeoff is the hush and busy this whole week. 2 exams and projct pressure which should have been taken on last week... the meeting was so so, I can tell that my boss is sleepy too...after a 2 hour meeting with the dean, he also carries a "dreamy far off look"... but he kept much clearer logic and idea about my work, my master thesis topic. Boss is boss, I won't be easy for this month... I hate that when I have been so much prepared, I have stuffed myself with so many people's ideas in their papers, I can't express myself clearly, I kept using those simple words like " this and that", I can't even describe what the problems I am working on and the approaches I am trying to solve the problem. I should be more positive about myself and be more brave. I don't have much time now... Like I said yesterday, when I want to speak fast, what ends up is either I got stuck or I speak Chinese.....